[400] State of the game, state of the blog (400th post!)

I wondered what I should do for my 400th post and I decided to muse a bit about what makes this blog tick right now and where it is headed. The short of it is: the development of Lost Songs of the Nibelungs makes me sit down and write. It's long overdue that I tell people who don't want to read 3 years worth of posts (again?) what this game is about. So this is my first attempt of a structured overview of the development process and where the game is at:

Wyrd is not Charisma, is it? (origin story)

The Nibelungenlied is something I grew up with because the town where I come from maintains the seem that it is one of the original backdrops of that tragic story (Worms, in case you were wondering). Growing up with it I had the common "knowing-the-story-without-caring-attitude from children being forced to memorize something. Not inspired. Not at all. It was only much later that I started to see merit in the classics, but by then the Lied had just been one of thousands of books I'd be interested in reading. So I owned a version of it, but never really get back to it.

Well, I'm not going to torture you with the hairy details, but at one point, round about three years ago, all the ingredients had been right: the blog was something I'd do on a regular basis, the D&D RC was something I thought about a lot, some Wagner for a comic inspired me and the right amount of curious boredom (the best kind of boredom where you actually want to sit down to tackle something demanding) led me to take this book back into my hands. All of this came together in one post (or two) and that's when I started thinking about writing my own game for real.

And to answer the question headlining the last two paragraphs: yes, Wyrd is the same as Charisma. It fulfills the same purpose but from a different perspective (or time or frame of mind ... your choice). Once you follow this path, it'll lead to some strange places. For instance, people had been so unhappy with the idea to change the terminology of the game that they actually started arguments with me about it. You know you are up to something when people start getting upset about petty details. Indeed it got so intense that I thought about changing it all. And then I did:

And here's the post from 2014 about it! D&D from an alternate universe ...

This never saw play. At least not at our table. But it got me thinking and at least Muscle, Finesse and Nerve made it into Lost Songs!

Just new meat on the same old bones? (design goals)

As you can see, Lost Songs has in a way very strong roots in D&D. I wouldn't call it a "retroclone", but I'll frequently call it a "Frankenclone" (which has one more layer of pun than I realized up until now ...) and it still is very much compatible with D&D, if you know how to look at it. What it not is, however, is "just" the D&D bones with some new meat and skin around it (like we see so often nowadays).

We all know that D&D is easily customized to be every game you want. With the market being as it is right now, you just have to take your pick among all kinds of flavors. Just don't be fooled to believe that those are "new" games. There's some work to it, art, even, but when all is said and done it's just a myriad of flavors of the same thing. And if my experience with things like this is any indication, then you can believe me that if you are going to write a new game, design it from the bottom up, well, it's going to take years before it's done. Not just a couple of months.

That's why it's rarely done. If you are to earn a buck with these kinds of things, it can't take you years because that'd be economical suicide, especially if you end up writing something that doesn't work with the consumer (for several reasons, the least of them being a bad game). So most just take the same old, but well working formula, bring their very own style and creativity to it and put it out there. Not a bad thing, just something to be aware of, I guess.

That said, I pretty early decided that I'm doing this for the fun of exploring the process, so I really don't care if this takes one or three or six years (I just want to live to see it, to be honest) or if people would be willing to spend money on it. Not even if they play it, really, because, let's be realistic about this: there are some people out there following the process (love you all!) and they'll probably even read the thing as soon as it is done. Maybe a small fracture of those people will actually attempt to even play this or use parts of it for their game (I know of two who already do!), but I'd be very mistaken to do this for anyone but me.

Even that is coming from a guy who has roughly 100 games at home he didn't write and still wants to play/DM at some point, so ... it's for the sport of it. It's for finding new approaches to the same old questions and attempts to not necessarily finding better, but just-as-good working solutions away from the well trodden paths. That's what I'm doing trying for every aspect of the game (like setting and combat and DM tools ...) and it takes time, but it also is pretty satisfying, in a way.

Early version of the character sheet!

It's not about if you hit, but how ... (all those strange ideas)

There had been some defining moments early on in developing Lost Songs. Because what started as a play on terminology, came with more and more decisions along the road, history being the first among them. Setting-wise we are talking Dark Ages here, 550 AC, somewhere north of the Alps and west of the Rhine. The Romans are in heavy decline and the great migration of the tribes just settled down, ready to explore their surroundings filled with the ruins of an old Empire. There's magic, too, and fairies and trolls and gods and ... it's a lot of stuff to hide in a historic setting.

But how "historic" should it actually be? I mean, at that time you have an early Christianity fighting the old faith, you have slavery and you have what we perceive as the role of women in medieval times to worry about. It's not the beer 'n bretzel approach, but how  much of it should I actually embrace? Well, one of the early defining moments of the game ended up to be a post about this very topic: who are the Nibelungs?

The answer is that they are not the winners of this epic struggle that produced kings and knights, but all the unsung heroes that got lost in history. Roleplaying games are about exploring certain topics, tropes and concepts. In that sense Lost Songs is a game about exploring the possibility of history, the stuff in the shadows, like that they had fighting women and even whole tribes led by women or all the little strange beliefs and cultural habits you can come up with or wars or tragic stories ... There's a lot possible in the little confined space that is the setting. So that's a thing, history is embraced and will be very different to what you'd expect (as it always is as soon as you look closer at something).

Combat had been the next big step. The basic idea had been to take the d20 and divide it into 3d6 (nothing new there). Now, if you use this for attacks, you don't just roll to see if you hit something, but (and here's the twist) you can take the individual results and find out how you hit. That's it. Going from there Lost Songs ended up having rules for delaying dice into the next round, giving them away as cooperation, using them to protect yourself or other ... a whole game in the game, really.

If you want to check it out in all it's (early) glory, go and read this post about the Bare-Knuckle Fighter and the Pub Brawl. We had a shit-load of fun with this. And it is just right for Lost Songs, as it is a combat experience very few other (role playing) games offer in that the tactical possibilities over weigh the pure results over the course of a fight. A system you can get better at as a player, as a very good friend put it.

Print this a couple of times and have a brawl with your friends!

Nonetheless, it is still a work in progress in many ways, as I just learned while testing the mid-level game, but we are having blast exploring the possibilities while killing giants.

Arguably the next big phase in development had been the DM tools, a much neglected aspect of role playing games, in my opinion. It's what kept me busy the last couple of months. The basic idea is that everything should be random and still produce material that works for the game. Lost Songs now has oracles for the weather, sandbox generators, narrative generators and right now I'm working on some mechanics that work as connectors between the characters and the sandbox.

As an interesting side note, all of this started because I wanted (needed?) a proper substitute for the brilliant D&D Encounter Reaction Table. There is, in my opinion, nothing just like it and it works so good, in fact, that I would use it for every game without thinking twice. It's just that I wanted my own system to do the same and the first piece to the puzzle that turned out to be had been the Random Narrative Generator (all you need to know about this is in a huge post I wrote about the topic here).

Took me 17 months from the first concept of the narrative generator to getting close to finishing that replacement for the Reaction Table. And that's before testing it in-game! I'm very much looking forward to that :)

There are lots of little concepts that established over time. Nothing that motivated me as much to go on as the pieces above, but strong contenders nonetheless. One of the most important among them is the concept of the hero as scarred but experienced and powerful. The basic idea goes back to how Siegfried dies in the Song of the Nibelungs: he dies because others had been jealous of his power and betray him. It has been, one might argue, his fate (think "Wyrd") to die this way. I wanted that in the game so the idea was born that ability scores actually are pools and can get "scarred" until they are no more and the character dies.

How he dies is defined by which ability score gets depleted to zero. If it's Wyrd, the gods really don't like you anymore and take care that your surroundings will betray you (but it could just as well be a bard spreading ill rumors about the characters until the people come for you because [reasons]). All of that comes together as the gaming experience that Lost Songs of the Nibelungs intends to be. Most of the time.

Character sheet done by one of my players ...

If you want an impression what the games end up being like when I'm DMing them, you could check out this little series about our early play testing, this post about a TPK in a more recent mini-campaign or this post about the mid-level game we are testing right now.

Where it's at

The phase with developing the proper DM tools is almost done (I think). As soon as I have the monsters and NPC rules in testing I got one more thing to write here and that would be a culture/tribe generator. Once that's done there's just one aspect left to do: magic. That'll be a tough nut to crack but I'm somewhat confident that I'll end up having an idea a soon as I'm ready to have it.

However, the hardest part so far has been to take myself as a DM out of the process. That might sound strange, considering that I just wrote a couple of paragraphs above that I don't assume many people will eventually actually play this thing, but it is not difficult for the reasons why I write it and instead about what I attempt to write. Every role playing game should have the aspiration to work for everyone interested enough to try it and the same is true for Lost Songs.

So where is the game at? Well, life being as busy as it is right now, it won't get done this year, but things will get finished and I'm approaching a stage where I'm confident enough to give this another DM for the play-testing (it's already in the works and it'll be very interesting!), maybe even to offer a mini-campaign online ... 

After that I should start writing this bad boy. I'm really not sure if I'm ready yet. At least I don't have a concept visualized that would be able to represent the game properly. Well, I'll get there eventually. Other than that, there is nothing harder than writing rules, let alone a set of rules. It's going to be a challenge. I'm okay with that. In it for a penny, in it for a pound, as they say.

Latest version of our Character Sheet ...

Either way, if you are reading this and this wall of text (attached to other walls of text) got you interested enough to give this a shot, contact me and I'll set you up.

State of the blog

Well, 400th post, everyone! This is not a very popular blog, but a somewhat read blog. People come over, read it and sometimes comment and share their thoughts when I post something. Well, most of the time anyway. I tend to write long posts, so although 400 posts is not much considering that I'm doing this for close to 6 years now, I'm pretty happy with all of this. 

That said, I sometimes feel like I should be more out there, write more, comment more, publish more ... but I guess that is a luxury I cannot afford right now. So for now, it is what it is and Lost Songs is the main reason for that. There'll always be some posts about D&D (as they are popular) and I'll keep coming up with helpful tools for our games, if I can. Maybe even publish another adventure (if I find the time and muse to write one).

One last comment on this being a blog that defined itself to be under the flag of the OSR for a long time (fourth wave OSR blogger, if you will ...). I'm not quite sure the OSR still is what I thought it was 6 years ago (if it ever was that to begin with) or if my little blog ever got accepted as one of those considered to be "old school". Things change and none of the bloggers I like to read and wait for updates nowadays are OSR. Many of them still write about older editions or retroclones (many more have just disappeared) but I got the impression that everyone but those cashing in moved on and OSR is more and more reduced to being a label and a club instead of an open and lively community. That, the drama and the turf wars start to get on my nerves, to be honest.

For now I leave that banner up, as it stood for something positive once and still does for some (I believe), but it is under probation. We'll see what the future brings.

Other than that I hope you guys have had some good reads over the time on the old Disoriented Ranger blog. I'm sure trying. Here's to 400 more!